God knows who still reads this, but anyways, after the movie(s) we played strip poker (I watched, since they took over my sleeping space) and went to sleep at 5am. We didn't wake up till 12pm. We played Uno and basketball, then went home :( Today is new years eve, I didn't think I would've done anything but Jenny called while I was at Fair Oaks and asked if I wanted to go to Tysons. We went and everything was closed, so instead we ate and watched The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button; it was a pretty good movie, even though it was real boring at the beginning. I find it weird how my mood changes with the mood of any movie. I cried..I don't know why D: Well, Happy New Year!

I'm at Jenny's right now :D well, I'm supposed to be watching the movie with them, its supposedly scary, all we've really done is laugh. The people here are Earvin, Chanel, Amanda, Natalie, Lance, Reggie and I. I'm having a great time, I get to see Jenny after 2 months. Yesterday, we walked around exploring the shopping center and walked back home, the walk from there to her house is like a fucking 30 to 45 minute walk, but its all good. Then Jenny, Amanda, and I went to the elem school near by and played basketball, a while after, everyone else came. We played street ball a little then we had to get back and get changed to go bowling with her other friends. We went and met up with her friends Regan and Adriane. We bowled 2 games, and went home, watched Shaolin Soccer and talked until 3 before we went to sleep. Today all we really did was walk to the shopping center and came back, played Uno and we're now where we are. I better get going. I'll update this later.

2moredays(:

I miss my best friend. I really do.

A friend

friend n.

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement

I thought I had many friends, after long thought I realized I only have 2 real friends. I'm unsure if I can trust the others....What to do..

And the confidence goes right back down..

Today we had a game against Centreville, I thought the day would good pretty well...but it didn't. Sure we played the game, I was expecting more playing time, I didn't get any. I got 3 minutes...3 minutes out of what? 32 minutes? That's like what? less than a twelfth of the game? It only upset me because coach said it was the best game we've played so far..and yet..I didn't play. Am I honestly that bad? After the game, I was all sluggish and not as happy as I normally was. fasdlfjkasfssdlfajsfdafs

A summary of our scores so far:
Dominion: 30 - 31?
Annandale: 19 - 67?
Fairfax: 21 - 48
Centreville: 16 - 67

Confidence boost?

Today I was worried about the 5 minute run we were going to have at practice, I was terrified that coach would yell at me, all she told me to do was catch up. That wasn't so bad. The only problem was that previously before practice, my aunt left my cousin with me to watch him. Since I didn't sleep at all the night before, I wanted to nap. I told him to do his homework and don't hurt himself while I nap. AND I specifically told him that when his mom knocked on the door, to wake me up so I can open the door. In case he was going to run away, I locked the door and turned the security alarm on. I woke up to a screeching sound from the alarm system, at first I didn't know what it was, but it was real annoying. I rushed to the living room, half-asleep, to my surprise it was the alarm, and there I see my cousin and his brother standing there....watching TV?! I mean are they fucking stupid? Are they aware that my alarm is alerting the police as they stood there? I panicked, and thank god, I remembered the code. My heart raced. It beat so quickly, I was scared. My cousins left and I wanted to nap so I had energy to practice. I couldn't sleep, my heart wouldn't stop beating so quickly.

I arrived to practice and my heart hurt..I thought I was going to have a bad day. Surprisingly, I blocked the ball 6+ times, caught the ball WITHOUT falling, and executed the plays correctly, coach even pointed it out. I also learned that I had no errors last game.

I later called coach to ask when practice was on Saturday, because if you didn't already know, I have to go to the chiropractor every Saturday. She told me that I was the smartest person on the team basketball wise all I needed to was get faster. That seriously raised my confidence so much. I always thought I sucked or that I was decent at basketball. Now all I need to do is get faster...