I can't seem to be happy anymore. I feel so distant to people, as if they don't want to talk to me. I don't blame them really, I tend to suck the fun and happiness out of many things. I don't really know what to do with myself nowadays. Its so routine. Sleep, school, eat, homework, shower, and repeat. I'm also getting into this phase where I'm just pissy with everything. I just turn everything into a little argument. Maybe I should just take a break from everyone, everything. Just sit alone by myself, take a walk and find out who I am, what I want, and where I'm going. I've been having this powerful urge to just cry, I keep fighting it, I just hate crying. It makes me feel vulnerable.

On a side note, I've been seeing and hearing things. Like silhouettes of people. For example, I was showering and I heard the door unlock and I saw a shadowy figure in the corner of my eye. It totally freaked me out. I don't know what's wrong with me and what's going on in my mind, but I have got to figure it out soon. I don't want this to be on going.

I can't sleep either. When I finally do get to sleep, I wake up in about an hour or two. and repeat until I have to go to school.