I feel disconnected from life. For the past few days I've laid in this bed. Having dreams about college, basketball, life. It really gets me thinking, I'm not ready to grow up, I'm not ready for what the future holds for me. And yeah I know most everyone else feels the same way. I feel like it's haunting me. I feel like I'm not good enough and that I'm a disgrace to my family.

For example in basketball, I feel bad that my mother comes to all the games just to see her daughter sit out. I just don't know what to think anymore. Every ounce of happiness feels like it's drained out of me.

Three more quarters to go. I can do this.